This post is going to be very raw, very real, and very unedited. I am writing as I am thinking and without going back to edit spelling, understanding, and grammar.
I want to get REAL for a hot minute in regards to my absence.
For those of you that follow me on Instagram, you know that I have been apologizing profusely about my lack of posts on my blog. To be honest, life has just been a tad hectic for me these past couple of weeks and not in a good way. I have currently been struggling with goals and where I am in life, and on top of that work has literally been the craziest and most stressful I have ever experienced. With that in mind, I have needed space and time to process.
This blog is so truly important to me and I want to share and serve in an entirely different way than I thought possible. Originally, my blessing to serve, has always been fulfilled through nursing. However, through this outlet, I have realized I am able to serve in a significantly more unique way.
Through this platform I can help women be HAPPY. I can help them navigate the struggles every woman experiences around my age (marriage, lack of schooling – now what, and ultimately just figure out life’s next goals). I never thought that this would be a way I would want to serve and I never thought this would be something I would actually stick with. My goal has always been to be a nurse, and although I love nursing, I have found a new passion and platform that I feel will help people in such a different way.
Because of this shift, I have been living in uncertainty and self-doubt. Am I good enough? Am I just doing this as a hobby or is it something I want to pursue more? Why am I not feeling as fulfilled in my nursing practice? What are my next steps in regards to nursing?
I am still not entirely sure on the answers to these questions, but one thing is for sure: I want to do this. I want to help women through their struggles, I want to help influence and change the world, I want to help women be their absolute best selves. I want to be in an environment where #collaborationovercompetition is a reality and I want to support other female entrepreneurs in their dreams, just like so many women have done (and continue to do) for me.
My intention is obviously to continue to serve in the hospital setting because that has always been my calling and I will not deny that calling nor stop fulfilling God’s plan for me. But, I feel that God has created a new plan for me, and I would be an idiot not to follow it.
I still don’t know what my exact next steps will be, but this time away from writing and exploring, and teaching in an entirely new and unique way has taught me that I have a new adventure to follow.
These past couple of weeks have been a hard journey to bear and one that I hope to help other women through, just as I have been helped. I am still feeling major moments of uncertainty, but my clarity on my passion for blogging, fashion, fitness, and life’s survival tips is undeniable.
I know you all have not asked for an explanation, but I feel you deserve one. My lack of motivation due to my feelings of overwhelm and uncertainty are still present. I still have a lot of learning to do in regards to bogging. I don’t know what direction my next step in nursing will take. But, one thing I do know: I do not want to be without all of you and I NEVER want to let you down.
This blog has been a blessing in disguise and something entirely necessary to help me through this phase in life. It was not an accident I have ended up where I am. I may have a long ways to go, but I will not stop and I will continue to learn and reflect to hopefully better serve you.
This post has not been edited in any way or form. What you are reading may seem rushed and overwhelming, but I feel my raw emotions and feelings on my absence are crucial in understanding my current place in life and I want to be 100% real with you. I am not here to hide or cover behind my computer. I am here to help serve, meet new people, develop lasting relationships, network, and ultimately have fun.
If you think this post is unprofessional, I am sorry, but I think my realness is more important and relatable than my ability to edit myself into perfection.
Thank you and I truly love all of your support.
xoxo,
Melissa
